I AM.

i am small. i'm frail and weak. i'm quiet. i am loud. i am confused. i am broken. i am insecure. i am fearful of everything. i am not brave. i am not confident in myself. i am not beautiful. i am not strong. i am not a leader. i am not smart or wise. i am sinful and useless. but most importantly, i am Christ's. see, that's what makes all the difference. i'm nothing, but HE is everything. i can't boast in my courage to move to Africa. i can't boast in my education or my possessions. i can't boast in my deeds or my salvation. i am absolutely nothing.

oh, but my I AM is big. my I AM is strong. my I AM's voice is quiet and loud, soft as wind and loud enough to shake me. my I AM is constant and always. HE is never confused or double-minded, but concrete and sure. my I AM is secure. HE is everything and HIS perfect love drives out all fear. my I AM is the definition or courage and braveness. my confidence is in I AM. my I AM is beautiful and majestic. my I AM is my strength. my I AM is powerful and perfect to lead. HE is wisdom and HIS word is knowledge. my I AM is perfection and sinless. my I AM uses the useless. HE is everything; the I AM.

you may think i'm special because i've moved to south africa. don't. you may think i'm brave because i'm living in a completely foreign place. don't. you may think i'm strong because i left all of my family and friends to do what Christ asked. don't.

i've done nothing special or courageous. i've not done something that is unreachable or unattainable. i simply did what GOD asked me to do.

brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth.  but GOD chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; GOD chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. GOD chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before HIM. it is because of HIM that you are in CHRIST JESUS, who has become for us wisdom from GOD—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. therefore, as it is written: “let the one who boasts boast in the LORD." 1 corinthians 1:26-31

but HE said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.” therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 1 corinthians 12:9

you can do this too. simply boast in your weakness and in the LORD. HE will change the world through your weakness. be weak, then Christ will be strong.